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echo_of_my_soul [userpic]
How do I think others see me?

My first response for btvsats_20, a 20-questions challenge community. I'm Faith for this round. (Big surprise, right?)

The challenge is in the subject, "How do you think others see you?"

How do I think people see me? Fuck, I don't know. As a slutty bitch with a 'tude who looks hot in leather? There's a reason they call 'em first impressions. Most people don't think there's anything else to me but what they see on the surface.

I guess it depends on who you ask, though. B? She thinks I'm a waste of space. When she looks at me, she doesn't see "Faith." She doesn't see, "Great figure, long brown hair, big tits." She doesn't even see "Vampire Slayer." She sees her mistake. She sees her failure. After all, it's B's world. The rest of us just live in it. If you asked her what was going on with Red or Xand or anyone besides her precious Angel and Spike, she'd give you this big-eyed, confused look, like, "What, you mean they have lives outside of following me around and taking care of me and asking me what I need?"

Okay, time to stop with the ranting. Guess I have issues. Didn't need a shrink to tell me that.


If you asked Giles, he might tell you he sees "a misguided young girl" who "just needs a strong hand to guide her". A redeemable warrior, maybe. He sees potential, anyway. He and I didn't get much of a chance to chat when we were worried about bustin' down The First, but he accepted me again. I think he just always wanted to believe he couldn't have failed that bad, even though he was never officially my Watcher.

You ask Wes? I'm a weapon. End of story. He'll say it with that snotty British tone that irritates the shit out of me, too.

Angel might be the only one who's in my camp. He always protected me and believed in me, even when I was at my worst, even when I had proven to everyone else that I was beyond hope. How does Angel see me? I'm a fighter. I'm strength, and I'm victory.

I guess, though, when it all comes down to it? The only opinion that really matters is mine. How do I see myself?

Look in a mirror. What you see is what you get.

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